Love Requires Sacrifice Sometimes???

Maybe I am being a fool. Maybe I am too idealistic or have too romantic of  a view of the world and love.

Before I say anything else, let me say that I love my girlfriend. And without her help after my fall, I may not have survived, and I appreciate that.

However, I can feel the relationship between me and my girlfriend slipping away. We have been together for about about a year and 9 months. Am I being too demanding to think that she should at least look for jobs around here or come for a visit? I completely understand that she has to look out for her career and what is good for her, but part of loving a person, in my mind, is being there when they need you.  When I fell and was hospitalized in China, my parents flew over there (and they are not the world traveling type).  I needed them so they were there.  That is what you do when you love someone. Right? Recovering from a brain injury is the hardest thing that I have ever gone through. My girlfriend should at least show a desire to come here. Maybe things wouldn't work out, and the result would be the same--her living and working in France--but it would mean so much to know that she tried to be with me when I need her now. She said that we should just live our separate lives until I am better again; then we can get back together. Sometimes, life gets hard--we have to help each other through those time. That is what community, family, and love are about. Do we just have different ideas about what love is? Or does she not love me as much as I love her? If the show were on the other foot--if she were injured--I know I would be there with her, for her. Ah, c'est la vie, I guess.

Man of Reason becomes Fool

Unsuspecting pair
City girl and country boy.
Cupid strikes again.

How else to explain?
Man of  reason becomes fool--
The power of love!

Whether side by side
Or halfway across the world,
My heart will remain.

I've Seen Love

Yes, Love is Patient.

And I Know That Love is Kind.

For I Have Seen It.

Love is Sacrifice.

And Its Putting Others First.

Yes, I Have Felt It.

Love. 

I know what LOVE is.

I’ve seen it.  I’ve experienced it.

“For God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten son.”

Jesus loved us so much that he gave his life and suffered so much for us.  For me.

My church loved me so much that they helped send my parents to me when I needed them in China.

My parents loved me so much that they dropped everything to come and care for me across the world.

Oops, I said “loved.” I meant “love” The all LOVE me so much…

I have seen their love for me. They have shown me what love is. Love is many things.  Love is caring.  Love is putting them first. Love is sacrifice. I will spend the rest of my life trying to show my love. To everyone. 

Just so you know--I LOVE YOU. 

I Thought of You Today

I thought of you today

As I woke to the sun so bright.

Fresh Starts and possibilities

Dancing in its light.

I thought about your smile

And the way that it shines.

My doubts and disappointments

All get left behind.

I thought of you today

As I glimpsed a blooming rose.

Growing from the concrete

Rebelling as it grows.

I thought of  your compassion

Your kind soul and fiery mind.

Teaching to the children

That situations cannot bind.

I thought of you today

As I watched a child play.

Road of opportunity

Waiting to be paved.

I thought about the future

And the story still untold.

The love and adventure

The wonders ours may hold.

I thought of you today

As my friends and I all dined.

The stories kept on flowing

Just like the sweet red wine.

I thought of all the memories

And [ray they never fade.

So many lay before us

Just waiting to be made.

I thought of you today

As day turned into night.

The stars came out to play

The moon gave its gentle light.

I thought about our romance

So understated and sincere.

Each day ends with a smile

Thank God that you're here.

I thought of you today

In every sight and situation.

Though you're far, I feel you here

In every smile and each elation.

I thought of your warm  arms

As I lay my head to dream.

I pray as you live your day

You take time to think of me.

(2009)

Hip Hop and Country

As day is to night,
Not whole without the other--
Two people in love.

Day and Night. Dark and Light. Different, but oddly the same. In the symmetry of a well-written haiku. A Yin to its Yang. Opposite, but fulfilling, completing. HER HAND IN MINE. It fits. SHE FITS. City Girl and Country Boy.

Sensual and Sweet. Sexy and Smart. Almond eyes saying exactly what I want to hear. Freckled face like a starry night. Scrunched-up nose to break the gaze. Rewarded with a smile and a gentle squeeze. A whispered sweet nothing--feels like something…special. Gentle kiss on the neck. A moment, just another moment. Another amazing moment. Hot chocolate in hand. No need for conversation.

Captivated, Intrigued, and Aroused. Heart and Mind concur. Falling, definitely falling. Head over heels. Sounds crazy, but feels right. Could this be love?

Cruel fate awaits along with the plane. Finally found, now must separate. Chinese Adventure. Bittersweet Goodbye.

Given just a taste,
A feeling so sweet and pure.
Left thirsting for more.


(2009)