Inside My Stubborn Head

"When you look back on your life, you'll regret the things you didn't do more than the ones you did."

Live life passionately, and you will make mistakes--we all do--but there will be nothing to regret. Regret is a funny thing; I think sometimes it takes a while for it to get around to us. Maybe we do something, and at the time we do not regret doing it (or not doing it), but as life passes, we may learn something or the consequences become evident. Then, we regret it. Sometimes, though, we do something and immediately regret it, like yelling at your mom or telling a bigger kid to mind his own business. However, I was thinking about the things that take a bit before we really regret them.

I bring this up because I found a song that I started writing a while back. It was shortly after I had gotten out of a relationship with a girl. I had fallen in love faster and harder than I ever had. Then, I went and did about everything I could to unwittingly mess up the relationship. I had almost moved for her, but I didn't. I was set in my selfish ways, and I was not willing to sacrifice what I wanted for a relationship. Maybe, we would not have made it anyway, but at least we would have known, for sure, that we had given it a chance. What happened, happened.  I am not still hung up on it, but I was trying to give some context for the lines below and also share a very important time in my life. Also, I want to encourage you to take a risk and make that leap--don't let fear or selfishness keep you from pursuing something you desire.

A world of what-ifs reigns inside my stubborn head

I’m sorry was the thought, but it was never said

Second chance of hope, along with fate’s promises broken

The word was on the tongue but never quite got spoken

A man of mystery, too cool to show a grin

The still waters try to hide the panic within

A poem of fallen pride, forgiveness, and unadulterated care

Written and erased without ever being shared.